I'm stuck in rut in my life. I can't hear the sounds around me, the happiness seizes. I wish I could do everything right but, I always fall as I catch my breath.
It all hurts; I'm never good enough for myself. I can't even impress myself. I'm in so deep that no-one can save me. Not even the ones who love me.
I want to runaway and never look back but, that won't get me anywhere.
Screaming in my head is those cries I want to yell because no-one truly knows my pain. I am broken… I have been for so long.
There is always someone one step a head of me and as much as I try I am always behind, even behind the ones who don't try or don't care.
It's like as I entered this, I was left alone and left to dry from this pouring rain. I'M NOT OKAY! I'm in so much pain, everyday I wake worse then other. Everyday it's like I lose myself even more.
I want to breathe again. I want someone to be hear while I'm trying to stop myself crying. I need a shoulder to lean on
It all hurts.