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My lips screaming out in cries
As you ask me the most hurtful thing anyone could ask
I feel so alone but, this makes me feel even more-so alone

Tears coming out my eyes
Wishing that this was some nightmare
I'm ten years old!
You don't care
You're just giggling

Why does everyone tease me?
Make fun of me?
Did I choose to be the way I am?
I just want someone to accept me
Not to just make fun of me

Giving up and crying is all I do
I can't fight when it hurts
When I know I don't have the ability to do anything

It's school photo day
It's all supposed to okay

I'm supposed to be smiling
I'm supposed to be happy
I'm not meant to be sad
I'm not meant to be crying

You're happy
You're smiling
You both are

I know who you are
I can't forget your face
As you laugh like it's a joke
But, I don't see the sense of humour in it

All I see is pain!

A heart so broken from words
From everyone leaving me to find myself
When I can't find myself by myself

Standing in this line
Wishing I wish I am somewhere else
Somewhere happy
I just wish the world knew that

I'm not pregnant! Just a little chubby
It breaks me when you laugh in my face and call me fat

I feel alone
I need a friend to hold my hand
But, everyone has moved on

I feel useless
As everyone discourages me
I stay knocked down
But, I won't stay that way forever
This is a very personal poem. If you didn't completely understand what I was writing about: I got teased about my weight a lot when I was younger (I'm not skinny now) and when I was ten, some girls came up to me on school photo day and asked me if I was pregnant (I hadn't even had my period). To this day, that memory haunts me -when my people joke about me being pregnant I try and rub it off but, it haunts me. And when people call me fat -it breaks me. In primary school (close to half it I dealt with being teased about my weight).

I did overcome it at one point (I lost weight and didn't realise but, now I'm not exactly that way any-more). People stopped teasing me for my last year of primary school after I ran 400 metres when I was twelve.

Looking back on those memories some of that pain was easier to deal with but, at the same time it was so hard to live through. That memory still haunts me and I still haven't forgotten those girls names or faces.

Thankies for reading. And please don't tease someone about their weight all it does it makes people live with a haunting memory.

- Pink Sparkles
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moonshadow604 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
lovely poem :)
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XxPinkSparklesxX Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! =D
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Bullies are just...I'm gonna stop there before I go on a huge rant and write a book about what should be done with evil, prejudiced people. I have a friend who's a little...well, alternative, and he's the sweetest guy you could ever meet in your life. People just see something different about a person and attack them for it - they see the difference and think it's bad, they don't look at the person underneath. We can only hope one day *they'll* get bullied about something, or have a kid who's a little "different". Then maybe they'll finally realise what damage words can do.
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XxPinkSparklesxX Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
We can't be accept people for being different? That's what I don't understand. It's what make people different that makes them more interesting and special.

The people who bully will probably will deal with karma...or end up less successful in life. There are some stupid people in the world who want nothing in life but, the make others live miserable and chances are their life at one point will be miserable when they feel guilt.

Hope it get easier for your friend. It's hard to deal with harsh word and comments from d***heads.
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Exactly! :) The world would be awful if we were all the same, like you say, it's people's quirks that make us unique and special.

I agree completely. I remember reading something once about this guy who'd been a bully at school, then really regretted it once he'd grown up. I suppose it's kind of ironic that they can't take the words back - they end up being haunted by them themselves in the end. Kind of poetic justice, huh?

Thank you very much, you're very kind. :) He has a lot of people who love him very much, and he knows that, so it helps him deal with the a**holes' abuse a bit better. It still makes me so f-ing angry though - why people can't just leave others alone!! What's a joke to them isn't always a joke to the person on the other end, and words and bruises don't just wash off like nothing. Still, he'll be away from them in a year, so that's something positive. I guess one good thing about being badly hurt by people is that it makes you really compassionate, and means you would never do anything like that to someone else.

Anyway, sorry for wittering on - thanks so much for taking the time to reply, and for checking out my piece on hope too!! :)
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XxPinkSparklesxX Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It would be boring if we were the same..idiotic people.

I think people do grow to regret it -if they don't well they're heartless idiots...who doesn't feel guilty for hurting someone.

You're very welcome!

You learn from other mistakes. People don't seem to get it though, they think it is a joke but, they take the 'joke' too far.

You're very welcome...I have a tendency to write so much sometimes (I feel sorry for the person having to reply to my comments). You're very welcome again! =D
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely, I completely agree.

I've never been able to understand how people don't realise what they're saying could be hurtful - they'd be hurt if someone said that to *them*, but it just doesn't seem to register when it's somebody else!! I think it's a sort of pack mentality - when they're all together in a group they egg each other on and get mean. Tactless, cruel, ignorant, prejudiced people are definitely my all-time pet hate.

It's no problem at all, I enjoy chatting to you. :)
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XxPinkSparklesxX Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's like people get lost in the crowd and all they are trying to do is belong. But, it doesn't mean they can just hurt someone's feelings for trying to belong. I hate though the kind of people who don't even give people a chance and turn the other way without even trying to talk to the person.

I enjoy talking to you too :)
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely!! It's like they see the person and just instantly judge them from that - it's so unfair!! DX But they get what they deserve in the end I guess - they end up alone and miserable, with only a bunch of nasty bigots like themselves for company.

Glad to hear it!! :)
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XxPinkSparklesxX Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, the joys of the beginning of high school...I found it hard to fit in...stupid judgemental people. Eventually they accepted (though it took them awhile). I really don't understand how the world works...


Me too! :happybounce:
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